About
Dedication note
‘Bad Idea’ is a deeply personal song that draws on Theia’s struggle with self harm. The song’s lyrics are raw and honest but they’re set to an epic soundscape of warm and uplifting synths and a gritty rolling bass.
Theia’s vision for the video was to use skating as a metaphor for life: “Sometimes life gets you down and you have hard times. You fall over. Sometimes you dust yourself off and jump up again; other times you need a helping hand,” she explains.
The Kiwi singer and songwriter searched far and wide for a skater to help bring the video to life, and in her search came across a Vogue piece on Chicano style in LA and discovered fashion designer and professional roller skater Sailor Gonzales.
Theia contacted Sailor via social media and the pair began plotting the video over Skype and email. Soon LA-based DJ, artist, director and videographer Tragik was also on board to shoot, with Sailor directing, producing, styling and doing hair and make-up.
The video was shot on a summer’s day in LA and features Sailor alongside skaters Natalia Ruiz and Miriam Morales. It’s a positive and vibrant video, full of colour and conveying strength and hope.
Contents note
Bad Idea Lyrics:
Here we go again, there’s a hurricane in my head Cos of something someone said And I’m used to drawing red And here I go again, hearing noises in my mind Trying to numb what I feel inside Thinking pain will make it quiet
It’s building up I’ve had enough Can’t handle myself, so I lock the door Lay on the floor I think this will help
But…
Hold on a second, it’s a bad idea Don’t hurt yourself, it’s a bad idea Breathe in, breathe out Just let it go You know it’s not in your control Don’t hurt yourself, it’s a bad idea
So many times I didn’t want be alive It’s too heavy in this life Am i strong enough to fight And how many times can I feel more alone Tired of my aching bones Need someone to hold me close
It’s building up I’ve had enough Can’t handle myself, so I lock the door Lay on the floor I think this will help
But…
Hold on a second, it’s a bad idea Don’t hurt yourself, it’s a bad idea Breathe in, breathe out Just let it go You know it’s not in your control Don’t hurt yourself, it’s a bad idea
I came and I conquered Survived in the fire I’m strong My pain is my power I don’t have to fight on my own
Hold on a second, it’s a bad idea Don’t hurt yourself it’s a bad idea Breathe in, breathe out Just let it go You know it’s not in your control